Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Accident
How long can a person mourn over something that wasn't there but yet was there. How long can you cry over something that has already been done? I needed to know it but yet I don't want to know it. I feel like crying out, my soul is weeping over her. Where did she go? Did what happen in the past really make her feel so desperate to find back that innocence she had lost and when she couldn't find it, that she just gave it all away?
I almost got knocked down by a car today as I was crossing the road home. Too deep in thought I guess. One more second was all it would take for that car which was going at full speed, to kill me. God saved me. He made me almost trip over a stick, and because of that stick, I stopped and looked up and saw a car had stopped right in front of me. It was then that I realised I could have died. I was expecting the driver to come out, all sore and angry, yelling at me. But he just gave me a stern look, then drove off. This isn't the first time I almost died.
I'm weeping for her. Questions bubbling up in my head, one problem after another. My friend might say that it's been done, there's no use but to comfort her. But why? Why must it be someone I truly care for and love? I suffered what she has, I need to be set free from something else. She had been on a quest to find back what she has lost and failed. Miserably failed. And then she just gives up. It hurts. Truth hurts.
God, restore her, please.
Love,
Zoie Esther
