Monday, February 23, 2009
Breathe In, Breath Out
That was what Aglin was telling me in the General Office. I'm still pretty unresponsive now to pretty much everything. My mother was shocked/ worried when the doctors asked me stuff and I didn't even blink at them, just kind of stared right past them, heh. Not my fault though, I just super tired and I was trying to say stuff but no words were coming out, my mouth didn't even open.
What happened was that last night I didn't even sleep. Okay, wait before I tell you that, I'm going to tell you ANOTHER thing: Usually when I think something will happen to me, it usually happens to me. Like one time, I felt like I will meet someone I know in TM, and the next few hours, I saw at least 1 or 2 people I know. This pretty much comes to past 90% of the time.Okay, back to story, I couldn't sleep last night and I really don't know why. I was like " SLEEP ZOIE, SLEEP." And just as I was dozing off, my alarm clock
just HAD TO RING. So, I got up and changed blah blah blah, then I told my mother I wasn't feeling well. Just then, I thought about these past few weeks the people who hyperventilated and wondered how it felt like.
CUT-----
Okay, another thing: The other time I went cycling with Charlotte, she fell and had this big big big wound which I didn't get in donkey years. So the next week, I went swave-boarding with Dionne and just as we were getting on the swave-board, I thought: What does it feel like to get a super huge wound that bleeds till no end again? And I shrugged it off, and swaved. Not even 1hour later, I fell down a steep slope with Dionne and gotten what I wanted- a huge ass wound that bleeds till no end.
Two, in fact. Back to story.
ACTION----
So, after Social Studies, I had Math and I felt a headache coming on, so decided to not to do so much activity in PE. My gastric started acting up, it wasn't painful but when I have gastric my throat sort of feels like it's getting smaller or someone is choking me and it's really uncomfortable. Soon after meeting up with Aglin and Lyn, I tried talking then I couldn't help but cry. It was THAT uncomfortable. I went into the canteen, felt like vomited then when we walked out of the canteen, I started hyperventilating and vomiting. Like what the smoof?
Aglin called up my mom who picked me up and the whole time, Aglin, Lyn and Charlotte were with me and cracking jokes, I was like going to laugh, but I couldn't, and I was seriously zoning out by then. I wanted to tell them to help me get my bag so many times but I just stared into space: oh my, I sound like a dead fish.
Parents sent me to CGH and they stuck some weird camera thing down my nose and into my throat, the numbing thing still hasn't worn off and I'm feeling weird because of it. It was gross so I won't care to explain much, I have a strange feeling the doctors thought I was so stressed or traumatised that I lost my voice, I'm serious.
After awhile, I got my voice back and I'm glad I can actually talk now. I was practically shouting things in my head like:
IT'S OBVIOUS I'M UNCOMFORTABLE! or
STOP PUSHING THE WHEELCHAIR BACK AND FORTH COS I'M HAVING A HEADACHE BIG ENOUGH TO BURST MY NOGGIN. Haha:D I shall rest now. I don't think I'll be using my 2 days MC though. I'll see if I'm better tomorrow. Right now, I still feel like vomiting, oh smoof.
Love,
Zoie Esther
