Saturday, April 11, 2009
About her
I used to look up to her as my role model. Someone I wanted to be. She'd tell me vulgarities were for stupid people and whenever I saw her phone those few saturday nights, were only full of Christian songs. Where'd she go? Surprisingly, we went to the same church. Then, she was gone. Just like that. I miss her. I don't like seeing her smoking, drinking. Sheesha is counted as smoking if you look at it. Drinking, some how doesn't feel right. That day, I drank on my cousin's wedding. The thrill, the excitment. It still pulses through me when I remember my first sip, but I know it's only me. It can be stopped. But you, the person I wanted to be. You're so different now. Or perhaps you were always like that, just that I never really took the time to figure you out properly after all.
I hope you read my blog, cousin. I really do. It's an honest opinion on how I see you now, don't be offended. I really love you lots, I don't want to see youd drifting off. It's just not right.
Will be going jogging tomorrow early in the morning. Dionne, if you don't wake up, I'll fall right back to sleep after calling you three times, I promise!
If I told you I lie sometimes,
If I told you I run away,
If I told you who I was before,
Would you follow me?
If I told you I sneak sometimes,
If I told you I love too much,
If I showed you the other side,
Would you follow me?
I'm shedding my skin so you can see my face,
I need you to know who I am.
I'm ready to go where I've never been.
Will you stay around and follow me?
If I told you the earth was square,
If I told you water wasn't wet,
If I told you life was fair,
Would you follow me?
I'm shedding my skin so you can see my face,
I need you to know who I am.
I'm ready to go where I've never been.
Will you stay around and follow me..
Song: Idina Menzel- If I told you.
Love,
Zoie Esther
