Thursday, April 23, 2009
How many times.
How many times must I endure sexual
harassment and molestation? Twice it was on purpose, another two times I felt
harassed and another two times it was an accident but their hands still hit the wrong parts. 6 times in all including the one I've just suffered. I'm now in the school lab. How many times will then it be enough?
I told myself after the second time I will not cry. I'm still crying. I want to be a guy. The main reason: I can do whatever I want and more or less not be
harassed.
Don't tell me you know how it feels because you don't. Today it was an accident. Who knows, tomorrow it may become rape. Today it was an accident, but that accident caused me to get hurt. I don't want to cry, I don't want to hate almost all men and male animals alike. Many wondered why I like female animals to male. That I shun from Dionne's dog and my cousin's dog. They ask me why, I told them I've something against males. I don't tell them it's because I relate some human males to male animals, accident or not, it still happened.
Charlotte once asked me how will I treat my boyfriend, if ever, I get one. And I told her in her face I don't know but I'll most likely not touch him. I'm afraid. I'm not lying. And yet, I'm still crying.
P/S
Because you always get the good stuff. Because I'm always a victim.
Love,
Zoie Esther
